I dont want this to be happening, but if it had to happen to anyone i would rather it be me.

I have worried myself sick, but i dont want anyone else to.

I dont even want to tell my brothers.

I dont want anyone to know, because i dont want anyone to worry.

but i had a feeling about this before the doctor called me this morning.

I dont know.

i just need you to know that there is a reason i'm not acting like myself, i just cant tell you why, and it has nothing to do with you i promise.

i love you.

please dont worry.

thank you for being in my life.
thank you for loving me like you've always loved me.
I'm so happy at the moment its unreal.
I'm greatful for everything in my life.
:D

is full of suprises.
i'm done with drama.
dont try and bring it upon me, because i'm not fucking scared of anyone.
I dont care who you are.
i'm not tough, youre not tough.
i just quite frankly dont give a shit.
:D
I'm just an angry person, but I'm having fun with my life,and its obstacles.

hiphop tonight.
who all wants to go?

everything has pretty much changed.
its good and bad.
I don't mindit at all.
I'm always happy, I'll always be happy.
people are just so stuck on bullshit.


I'm thinking about switching to nightschool.
so i can get that jobbbb.
idk

Church was amazing as usual.
but before church we had qdoba sunday, and then a playfest @ centenial park.

it was exciting.

but yeah.

um

tommorow i get a new phone.

oh

i miss sean alan.
:(
alot

I miss alot of things lately.
it sucks, but I guess that happens with growing up.
uhm.

yeah

My friends are amazing, I appreciate each and every one of them.

Zain Curtis died drinking and driving the other night.

hahaha.
so last week some kid from myspace posted this bulletin about how he was going to kill himself and that he popped pills and drank.
keep in mind this kid is 20 years or so old.
how fucking immature is that?

hahahahah.

so i told him to fuck off.
and he called me fat.


of course.

because thats the only insult people can come up with these days.

on another note. I'm tired of having real friends and then the peopel I don't really know if theyre my friends or not due to the fact that everytime we talk we're sarcastic to eachother.

it sucks not to know if youre a joke to someone or not.

but whatever.

other than that I guess I'm ok.
but I could be lying to you.

I finally got a fucking live journal after 2 years of protest.
i guess it really doesnt matter.
I need some other way than myspace to let you faggots know how I feel.

besides those select few shitty friends that I have, people have been really good lately.

but I'm willing to give those few a second chance.

but only if they want one.

Kileen is sitting behind me and shes my only friend so I'm basically talking to her.

fuck that.

:(